Right where I want you

Over the past few weeks I have gone out for a run on Friday afternoon that in my own words seems to be “soul refreshing.” As I come to the end of a busy, stressful, and exhausting week, I lace up my running shoes and just go. More often than not, I don’t wear a watch (which is odd for me) as it allows me to feel free. Free from grading, free from lesson planning, free from work. During these runs I allow myself to process the week which sometimes turns into a great pity-party. Last week my pity-party took the form of complaining to God and arguing that life was tough and that He should make everything easier for me. Below is the way our conversation seemed to go, and after reading I hope you can see why these runs have been refreshing for my soul.

God, I feel like trying to do what you have called me to, but it’s hard.

Good. 

Good? God I’m not quite understanding, this job is hard.

I know. I never meant for it to be easy. 

But, I’m exhausted, tired, stressed.

Yes, but I have told you to come to me, and I will carry all your burdens. 

Yes. You do give me rest, but sometimes that doesn’t mean it’s not hard.

Do you want to be shaped more into the image of my Son?

Yes – that’s what I’m going for here.

Then I have you right where I want you. It may be hard, but know I will not leave you by yourself. I have you right where I want you. 

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