One of the things I truly enjoyed about writing RTL was how I tried to incorporate personal stories throughout the chapters. It was not a book with a theme of, “This is the way to do it” rather, I approached it from the vantage point of, “Through my running this is what I experienced.” As a result of that two years after publishing the book, I have continued to encounter the different emotions written uncovered in RTL. Recently I have found myself coming back to the twelfth chapter which is all about trust. Within that chapter I wrote about the way in which we must trust our training and trust God throughout the situations life throws at us. I have recently been reminded of my need to trust in regard to both of those situations.
This past week I have been quite ill. It started over the weekend and by Monday, I had to leave work early for the first time in almost four years! It took a lot of pain and discomfort for me to finally waive the white flag and return home after a few hours at work. After getting home I took a few dosages of medicine and proceeded to sleep for roughly 18 hours, my body clearly needing the rest to fight off the sickness. As a result of the sickness I have not gone for a run in a week. I am within seven weeks of my next marathon and this week was supposed to be one of the highest mileage of my entire training – but I knew there was no way my body would find any benefit from running. My mind wanted to run, but my body was disallowing it. Throughout the week I have seen my frustration grow and my worry increase. Will this one week disrupt an otherwise really good time of training? Will I be able to fully recover with the time left before the race? Will my goals run away from me while I am forced to stay on the couch and recover? But, it’s about trust. I need to trust my training. Trust the miles that have already been run. Trust the determination that has brought me to this point. Trust the training.
In life, I have many big life decisions that lie ahead. When will I know the path I am to take? When will the door be opened? How do I know if I am making the right decision? Trust God. God has never let me down thus far and he will not start doing so now. The God who cares about lavishing me with undeserved grace, also cares about the worries of my life. I am not insignificant to him. I must trust in his goodness, his faithfulness and his character.